I hate to admit this, but, I’ve been in a running rut lately. It started a couple weeks after I ran my half-marathon. I don’t feel the joy as much when I run anymore. I feel like it’s more of a chore, something that has to be done.
Then again, I wasn’t much into running in the first place. I only ran to lose weight. It didn’t help that in 5th grade, my mom woke me up early so that I would go outside and run. She wanted me to lose weight. I still kept running, but I felt no joy. All I did was listen to music and run for a certain amount of time. Then, I’d be done with it for the day.
Then, I realized that I run a lot longer when I am really stressed. When I say really stressed, I mean, it was bad. It has happened twice already. I ran a lot (longer than an hour), just so that I can take my mind off of things. Then, I complain about my thighs getting bulkier. That’s what happened with my half-marathon. I decided to run it to challenge myself and distract myself from the things. Hey, it requires a lot of time and dedication to train.
I put a fake front, saying that I love running. Who really loves running, anyway? People just do it to be healthy. Only a few people actually love running. I still do it. I still run a lot. But, I don’t know how I really feel about it. I still run around 20 miles a week, less than the 30 + miles from my half-marathon training. I sometimes dread going for a run.
Maybe it’s because I haven’t ran on an actual pavement for a while. Maybe it is a bad idea to just run on the treadmill. It gets boring running on a treadmill. But, I don’t want to be brave enough and deal with the cold outside.
Even when I do run outside, I feel that my stamina has decreased since my half-marathon. My breathing gets harder faster and my heart beat goes up the roof sometimes. Add in the fact that my calves start to tighten up and my knees start hurting a bit, I don’t feel like running anymore. But, I still push myself through. I know I shouldn’t though. That is what happened on Sunday.
I feel like I am ranting right now, but I just had to get it out. Do you guys have any ideas of how to get out of my running rut? Any tips would be appreciated. Thanks in advance! =)